I smile because I have you in my life

There is something about the way in which God works. He brings people into our lives for many different reasons, but those that he brings to teach us a lesson and make us smile are the ones worth remembering.

I talk about him often, write about him more and think of him everyday...my BA. The title of this blog is a true reflection of how I feel about him. I have never admired or loved someone as much as I do Brandon. I have my other guy friends and my bestfriend Jason, but there is something special and profoudly unique about the relationship that I share with BA. Anytime I feel happy or sad, have good news or bad I know that BA will listen and give me advice where needed. I may not see him often, but the love and respect we have for each other has created a bond that shines bright everytime we are reunited by a special phone call. Some how he always knows when I need to hear from him, today was no exception. Sometimes in the midst of our busy lives we forget just how amazing we are until we are reminded by someone who has always seen it within us.

BA has always seen the good in me and the best I have to give from the day we met, he has never let me back down and in his own way has challenged me to find the special woman I am. I love him more than he will ever know and I am truly blessed beyond words to have someone like him in my corner. Life is so much better and worth living every day for because I can always smile knowing that BA is in my life.

Do I think I missed out?

I've gotten this question a lot lately in relation to deciding to leave Howard after my first semester and was reminded of it thanks to facebook and the friends from Howard that I have via facebook. So question: Do I think I missed out on anything by not finishing college at Howard. Answer: Absolutely not. I feel like the things that happened to me in the first sememster taught me a lot and made me a better and stronger person. It was at Howard that for the first time in my life I had ALL black friends. Never in my life had I hung out with only black girls and actually enjoyed it. I was fortunate to have found a group of girls that I meshed quite nicely with. Although there are times I miss DC and the people I met and the things I expereinced I wouldn't change my decision to leave. I am thankful that I had the opportunity to expereince the other coast and the black college experience if only for a semester, but the things I experienced at a Division 1 Pac-10 university are way more me. At WSU I was able to major in Sport Management and minor in Communications (one of the best com schools in the country), I met amazing people, especially T, Megan, Katie, Rachel, Ashley, Jerome, Amanda, Mandy, the lady hoopers, the men hoopers and the football players that I wouldn't trade for the world. I got to expereince our men's basketball team going to the NCAA tournament back to back times, including a sweet 16 appearance. I got to watch USC and UCLA up close...including shouting to Josh Shipp that he is the sexiest man in the Pac-10. I got to work in a big time university athletic department, I got to walk to bars and parties...wasted most of the time, I made trips to Idaho (a state I thought I'd never set foot in), I got to come home for all major breaks (I didn't get to come home for Thanksgiving my first year of college). WSU brought pleanty of great friends and memories.

In short both Howard and WSU have made me into the person I am. I think that had it not been for Howard I would have never really gotten the chance to have a group of black girlfriends, see REAL step shows, expereince the Ques at their best, explore DC, Maryland and VA, spend hours shopping at Pentagon City, Union Square, PG Plaza or Adams Morgan and I would have never had a lesbian roommate or spent 6 hours in a hospital due to several girls getting alcohol poisioning at my first Que party. At WSU though I got to experience a "college town", develop a love for country music, play beer pong (not very well), play flip cup, drink til I passed out, dance in cages, walk to 95% of the parties I went to, met my soulmate in many ways (T!), sleep outside for HOURS with friends and strangers to grab the best seats for Cougar baketball, sneak liquor into the stadium for every Cougar Football game, taken half the OSU basketball team out and return 3 players to their hotel at 7 the next morning, being a sport management major, develop a tolerance for cheap beer (Busch light), learn to drink like a fish, being seen on TV (thanks to all my hours spent outside to grab front row for basketball games), I could go on forever!

I grew up a Husky (UW), spent a short time as a Bison (HU-Howard), but ened up a forever proud Coug (WSU)

Exhaling Thoughts

I have always believed that writing is one of lifes most profound arts. The art of writing is like exhaling thoughts on to paper or in todays world exhaling thoughts through keys onto a screen. I just found a notebook I kept about 4 years ago that took me back. I found somethings that I wrote that reminded me how much I love the art. I need to get on writing again more to just release thoughts...that is why I started this blog. I need to to find the time again to really get out what it is that I am thinking and feeling. In looking back I have some pretty profound thoughts if I do say so myself.

As a slight detour...or perhaps glimps into what I may write about next. I am truly in love with the person I am. I may not live my life the way others want, I may have my days where I get down on myself, but once I get through all of that I relize I'm a pretty sick (in a good way) individual. I may not have someone special to share my wonderfulness, but I know it and the people I surround myself with know it and for now that is enough to satisfy me.

Simply...Exhaling thoughts...