What happened to all the male R&B groups...

I was on my way to work today listening to my ipod as usual on my bus ride to and from work and all the great hits from Dru Hill, 112 and Jagged Edge seemed to play this morning on the shuffle. It made for a pleasent ride, but also got me thinking...where have all teh male r&b groups gone. So techinically Jagged Edge is still around and we have Day 26 (I'm a fan), but male r&b groups just aren't the same. What happened? I mean there was New Edition, Mint Condition, Jodeci, Dru Hill, 112 and so many more amazing male r&b groups in the lat 1980's and early 90's, but they have all disappeared. I understand people change and things change, but good music should never change. The next generation needs to stop bein greedy and start makin good music. I really do miss the good ol days and I'm happy that I'm old enough to remeber them. I guess I'll just have to keep the ipod and itunes full of the oldies, but always goodies!

P.S. As for my last post...things are starting to look up and I'm happy to report that the person who hurt me has since appologized and we have agreed to try and work things out...we both deserve it.

Bruised but not broken

I woke up this morning annoyed, pissed, depressed, down on myself and all around irritated. I cried, prayed and wanted to scream. I thought about getting even, I even comptimplated my existence. Then it hit me...it's not my problem. It's not my fault that people do terrible things to others, but it is your fault if you continue to sit around ignore the issue and let the disrespect continue. You can either let what those do to you destroy you and create anger or you can choose to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and believe with every fiber of your being that there was nothing you could have done differently. Far too often we replay things over and over wondering what we could have done differently only to realize we never did anything in the first place. Why people do things we will never understand. Why we hurt each other and those that care for us most...we will never know. It is important however to remember the ugly actions of others are never a reflection of us.
I am left sadden, slightly dazed and oh so confused, but I am being mindful that prayer and faith will bring me through just as it has so many times before. Although I may have lost in a sense and feel defeated I really won. I didn't cuss, fight or in any other way disrespect myself and for that I can't help but smile.
This too shall pass and more importantly...that which doesn't kill me only makes me stronger and wiser.

Before it happens....

I always find myself in the darndest predicaments and this time is no different. This is somewhat of a follow up to my last post. So I hung out with Mr. Wonderful Saturday night. It was a great time. No complaints at all. He held my hand when we were at Safeway, he took me to his place and he made sure I got home safely. However I'm still skeptical as hell. He seems to perfect, something is missing. I'm more scared for him to be perfect than to find out that he isn't. So that leaves me where I am right now. Do I stick around and wait for him to break my heart into a million pieces or do I bail before I get into deep? Now I know what they say...in order to find love you have to be willing to get hurt. Well I'm sick of being hurt and I'm not sure I could go through that with this one since I really like him and think so much of him. I mean I'm already waiting for him to screw up just like everyother guy which I know is so wrong, but I can't help but to think that because he is so perfect there is something really wrong that I'm going to find out too late. I wish liking people wasn't so complicated and that if you like someone they just like you back. Oh if it could all be so simple!

Too good to be true????

I have always wondered if somethings really are too good to be true. Most of the time they have proven to be too good and so untrue. However, with the new year in full swing I'm feeling as if this new year brings with it a new twist on things being too good to be true. Lastnight I met quite the interesting gentleman in the most unusual way. He attended the basketball game I was working at with his friend that is my aunt's assistant at work. My aunt met him before they arrived at the game and being the WONDERFUL aunt she is asked if he was single and turns out he was and she said you need to meet my niece...good lookin out. The man is beautiful so my type. I'm excited to see what happens, but also keeping my guard up and not getting my hopes up. However he's already passed a major test in meeting my aunt, dealing with her crazy antics and still wanting to persue something with me. I'm very intrigued and even a bit optimistic. Tomorrow we plan to hangout...who knows. Could this be the end all (at least for now) or is he just another guy that is too good to be true????

As I begin 2009...

We are now 4 days into 2009 and I'm really hoping that this year will bring definition and clarity to my life. As I've grown over the years I've come to realize that you cannot please everyone and the only person you have to please is yourself. I'm done living for everyone else...I'm ready to live for me. I'm going to start doing all the things I never thought I had time for and stop neglecting those that mean the most to me. I'm starting by taking my first trip to Vegas at the end of the month with my cousin/Godsister for her 30th birthday. After that I'm planning to go to LA and then Orlando. I'm also hoping I find time to take a trip down to Portland to visit two very good friends.

I know that 2009 will have it's ups and downs just like any other year (it just wouldn't be life), but I'm also hoping that I can continue to find the strength to put myself first.

I'm looking forward to beginning my first big kid internship tomorrow and beginning a new chapter of my life along with it.